As the month progresses, I’ve started to feel more and more stumped on what to draw for Inktober. Day 15 was especially a challenge. It didn’t help that most of my ideas would involve hours of my day spent executing– hours that I just don’t have on Sundays which is my most packed day.
By the time I got around to drawing it was basically bedtime and I still had no idea what to do. A couple times I started a half-hearted attempt at a throw-away idea but it just felt forced and well. . . half-hearted, and I knew it would bug me too much to have that level of meh for an Inktober piece.
Finally, I decided to go with this simple drawing.
Considering how last second and almost throw-away this was, I’m surprised I liked how much this turned out. It was basically just like the other ideas except somehow it didn’t feel as noncommittal and apathetic.
I think the difference between this idea and the others is the pressure I was putting on myself.
The thing was, I knew I didn’t feel like much like drawing but I still felt the need to do something new or creative. Maybe a different technique, or a different subject, or something interesting or highly detailed. But I didn’t have enough time to go really out of my way to accomplish that and to be honest, I was just exhausted. From the events of the day, yes, but also from drawing so much. And that showed.
But when I gave up on trying to make something different or exciting and did a subject that’s more typical for me, I stopped feeling so unmotivated and started to enjoy it and that’s what made the difference.
And somehow in the process I actually ended up doing a technique that I don’t normally do anyway.
Ironic, isn’t it?